Yes, I know, one is never too sure what they will find when they click in..what rant am I on this time? Well, this one, I have sat down more than once to attempt, it's a bit of a pickle, and I am still just a wee bit confused myself, so bear with me, as I muddle around.I am only muddling, because, it is bubbling away, and I need to clean it out, before it goes bad.
See, I have spent most of my life working at jobs that require me to perform a specific work load, and...I attempt my best to do so. Almost all the jobs I have had, were in a group setting, I must do a set job, in order to ensure a company/section, runs smoothly. Granted, I have had positions that often mean I work alone, but, in the end, it was a group of fellow workers, doing their own part, and completing a variety of duties that came together in finished product. I never had to worry about what others were doing, because, there was always a "boss" a person that was at the head of all the jobs, who was not a part of the group, they were the top of the Hill, so to speak, the job was, in truth, their responsibility. They had to check on all the little Worker Ants (one of which would be me) to make sure they did not have problems completing their small part in the big picture.
I think I have mentioned more than once, one of these Boss people, my very favourite boss, not to say I have not had others who I truly enjoyed working for. Do you get that part? I worked FOR them. When I was in the military I had a ton of Boss people, in fact, almost every single person I worked with, was a boss to me, I was simply a Private, the bottom of the barrel. When I worked in the Bank, again, almost everyone there was in a higher position. I was simply responsible for my job. If I didn't do my job properly, I got called on it. If I continued not doing my job properly..I expect I would have been fired. I have been laid off , more than once, from a few jobs, but, never fired. I expect the reason I never got fired was, I was always given the opportunity to sit down, and have an evaluation every so often. During these, I would be told where I stood out, and where I was lacking. Oh, I would usually dread evaluations, but, in fact, after them, I would feel pretty good, there was always something I excelled at. The things I needed to correct, well, I had the chance to attempt to perform better, work a little harder, so that the next evaluation, I would be credited for my hard work.
I enjoy being a Worker Ant. I do not have any wish to become responsible for a bunch of other Ants. I can control my own work, but, I simply cannot control the work of others, and..do my work. I prefer to stay a part of the group, to stay where I am comfortable.
I have managed others, and worked my own share, but, in a totally difference environment. One that had set rules, set work loads, and set number of employees, a very simple business, with single employees covering 3 shifts. That was a pretty simple management position, the only issue, was covering shifts, on occasion. However, I was NOT really a part of a group, in this instance, I was much older than most employees, I had a family, and I was friends with my employer.
To be a BOSS, means, you remove yourself from the group. You try and enforce the rules, you complain about others, you, in fact, become management. You can't pick both sides, it just doesn't work. You make a choice to step up, along with the choice, you accept that the Worker Ants are your responsibility. However, the moment you accept this, it belongs to you. You can't hand it off, it sticks like glue. You might make a little more in wages, but, make sure it is worth the cost, because, there is a pretty damn high price to pay, when you move higher on the hill.
You open yourself up to getting thrown under the bus, for trying to work both sides. You can work yourself into insanity, and instead of a gold star, you can get hit with a sack of burning poop. You can find that everything you tried so hard to do, was just not good enough! You are not an army ant, you are not the queen ant, you are not even a red ant, you are simply a tiny little worker ant, who lost her way.
I lost my way! Somehow, I ended up working two levels of the Ant Hill at the same time, just an impossible task. I would have probably enjoyed life at the top of the Hill, if didn't have to work like an idiot at the bottom, as well. The view from the top of the hill, is much different when you have to run up and down it. There is an awful lot going on in the Ant Hill, and the whole thing can topple if the tiny little Worker Ants don't work together. Mighty hills have been built with a group effort between the tiny Worker Ants, however if the Ants simply scurry, willy, nilly all about, and don't follow the trails, they may end up lost like I did, or worse, they may find, one day..the Hill has a large can hanging over it, with the word RAID printed in big red letters.